In four weeks, this term will be over, and if I were a freshman I would be preparing for finals right before the summer break…in the middle of summer. That was me four years ago, when I was finishing my first year here at Drexel.
In four weeks, I will be turning in my thesis proposal (ideally) and finally get that off of my to-do list and get on with my project.
Four months from now, I will be starting my final year at Drexel, and hopefully most of the bullshit I put up with will cease and I can attempt to try and enjoy what little time I have left in college. My cousin, who is four years younger than me, will be starting college as a freshman at George Mason at the same time lol. Hopefully she doesn’t have to deal with said bullshit.
Over the last four years, I pulled all-nighters like it was my job. The more all-nighters I pulled, the higher my GPA would be for that term (it’s true, I checked). Now, all of that lack of sleep has finally caught up to me and is making it impossible to finish the work I need to do most days (and nights). They are the reason why I’m nocturnal now, and why my circadian rhythm is all kinds of fucked up.
And in four hours, the sun will rise, so I should probably finish that work I need to do…
Can we say this about all forms of standardized testing?
The only times I go back to my high school is for random concerts that my high school band director (Ms. Wagner) invites alums to come back and perform. I always think that I need to go and see other teachers when I visit, but none of the ones left there had as much of an impact on me as Ms. Wagner did (My Japanese teacher did, but he retired already. Ms. Wagner has four years left lol). That is why when she invites us back, I try as hard as I can to go back.
For the last concert of the school year, one of two things happens. Every band at my high school will perform a piece or three, and then either the alumni band or the mass band will play as well. Mass band is where all 200 people in the four bands at high school will swarm the stage and play a couple pieces, and Alumni Band is where random band alums come back and perform two pieces. These alternate every year, so next year mass band is happening on the last concert, and the year after that is the next alumni band concert.
This year, many people did not come because of final projects and work and graduating college and stuff. I still have a year left, and I am (supposed to be) working on my thesis, so I decided to take a weekend off and go play with the alumni band. It was also the weekend after my birthday and my parents wanted to see me, and I hadn’t been home in about a month, so I decided to stay for the weekend. I was talking to people to try and figure out who was going to be able to come for the concert, but most of everyone I asked did not reply or said they could not come because of the aforementioned reasons. I still found people that I graduated high school with that I hadn’t seen in a while to hang out with, and saw that we were all pretty much the same lol. I could not convince my brother to come because he was trying to avoid some people, and that trumped the chance of us dominating the bass clarinet section lol. There was another bass clarinet player there, but he was really quiet even though he had such a beautiful instrument…I meant his bass clarinet >.>
I felt strange being referred to as an alum tonight. I always pictured older people with families when people said the word “alumni,” but after the concert we were talking about looking for a bar or someplace to go and drink (I didn’t go because I don’t like drinking during the week for the most part :P). Those are things that older people with families don’t do right after a concert (I don’t think they do, at least). There were a lot of people here that graduated in the 1980s and 1990s, and those are the people that I usually think of when someone says alumni, not…me. It makes me feel like I have a responsibility to do something or to make everything better. Ms. Wagner was asking for donations for the school at the concert, which is where that sense of responsibility for that school came from…I think I have plenty of other things to think about or be responsible for other than my high school. Like that thesis proposal that I should be writing right now.